My life has never been simple. There has always been something going on. I guess God wanted to prepare me for this journey ahead.

My husband and I started dating when we were in high school. We married a couple of years after graduation. Life was hard, at first, but he always found a way to bring humor into our circumstances. Every new day I loved that man even more. We had two beautiful children. First a daughter, who was the world like her dad, then our son, who is my mini me.

We loved to dance, play, go on nature hikes, walk the trails, and just act plain silly. I was blessed with this man for almost 16 years of marriage. Then one night changed everything.

I had just got out of the shower and getting the kids ready for bed when I got the phone call. “Robin, I’m on my way to get you. I don’t know what’s happened. Your husband is in the hospital.”

I knew when he left for this shift that something wasn’t just right. I begged him to stay home. But he refused to leave his shift short handed. A simple traffic stop, and they took his life. I will never truly understand why.

I was then a widow. A WIDOW at 34. I had two kids to raise, all on my own. I’m still lost.

Then, almost 6 months to the day, my daughter died suddenly of heart failure. I performed CPR for 30 minutes, until the ambulance arrived. The hospital tried for an hour, but to no avail. She was gone. Then I was the widow with one child.

The trials of life try to take everything from you. Don’t let it. Somehow through all this sadness and grief, I have found a closer relationship with Jesus. He is my only rock. My foundation. Lover of my soul. I will keep my eyes on the Shepherd. I want to see my family again. All I can ask, if you haven’t found the love of Christ yet, contact me, or your local church. Its easy to receive forgiveness, all you have to do is ask.